A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.
You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
An offering from Hope Ruiz
Locked jaw with immigration once again. Six years with my life dangling in the unknown: battling health problems, work…a baby born. All with my husband stuck on the wrong side of the border. Seems so far away and yet the pain lies right beneath the surface. Easily revealed by news of a deported friend or the realities of violence in Mexico. How easily we could be in the midst of it. I look at my children overwhelmed by gratitude that they were spared. I’ve worked hard to let the wound scab over and move on. Yet I am thrown back under water as I’ve had to wade into the chaos once again trying to bring my stepson here to live with us. My aching heart tugging at me to hold on.
Though the winding path has now straightened out before me, I hold the lesson like a smooth stone in my pocket. These are the moments that both try us and build us. Looking back on the road I’ve traveled, the turning points have never been the easy ones. Maybe because the challenging ones are the ones that lay us bare, open our hearts as we cry out to the universe for guidance, for strength. And the light is so much brighter when we make it around the bend! Come out the other side as if rising out of the water, a baptism. A life reborn.
Prayer
May I cling to You in my darkest hours and never forget to seek You even when the sun is shining
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